Phrenology

 Folks say in the therapy program that journaling is a positive coping skill and that it eventually helps if you keep at it.  It's been nearly two weeks since I wrote so...yeah.  

My head is abormally shaped.  My skull, I mean.  I have massive lumps and bumps along with large flat swaths.  I remember falling and hitting my head twice as a child, but these lumps and bumps can't be from those, right? I always wanted to free myself from hair and just shave it all but I am too vain since my deformed skull would then have it's day. 

I have an old school phrenology model - like the one below.  According to it, I am totally fucked.



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